February 26-March 4, 2017 is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. I am proudly healthy, and I also I believe that recovery is a lifelong journey. All week, I'll be sharing thoughts about the joys (and struggles) along the way.
Please know that some topics and language used may be triggering to those in a vulnerable state.
To learn more, get screened, help or get help, visit nedawareness.org.
We're nearing the finish line of National Eating Disorders Awareness Week, but for recovery warriors, the process of healing is a lifelong journey. While some of us experienced a clear delineation between the time spent suffering and when we made the commitment to our health, what happens next is not so chronological.
But indeed, isn't that the experience for everyone? What is life but a constant striving toward better health, deeper understanding, and greater clarity? Even though I have stopped hurting myself with eating disordered behaviors, I look to my health as a constant work in progress. As an old friend used to say: It doesn't have to be bad to be better.
One of the best-loved tools in my wellness kit is a cache of well-worn mantras and intentions, rubbed smooth with use. Whispering them under my breath or repeating them over and over in my mind has a soothing and strengthening effect. I may have given up the crutch of bulimia, but I gained something much more effective for dealing with life: the power of my words.
Here are the intentions I hum and hold closely:
- I deserve to be nourished
- I release what no longer serves me
- I am impenetrable
- Be with what is
- Be kind to yourself
- Love, love, love
- Breathe in calm (inhale). Breathe out anxiety (exhale)
- Visualization: Picture a warm, sun-drenched golden light slowly seeping into your entire body
- Don't miss out on 95% of your life to weigh 5% less
- Be calm and curious and playful and nothing is scary. Calm and curious and playful
- My actions affect all (This reminds me that if I make a self-harming choice, its consequences are universally felt. Conversely, When I am kind, that love reaches others.)
- lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu (may all beings everywhere be happy and free)
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To read about the most unexpected change that occurred when I embraced recovery, click here.